Does your soulmate reflect the beautiful soul you always had?

Feeling like some kind of way tonight. A Carrie Bradshaw kind of way in regards to how your significant other can reflect your soul and spirit; which got me thinking of a friend of mine. Tonight’s post is a fun post I haven’t done in quite some time. I used to write about relationships (more of an observation of other people) and things of that nature, but haven’t had the time to write anything of late. However, tonight I saw something that sealed my theory (more like common sense) of what I once told a friend of mine.

A male friend of mine once tried to date me, but I refused because there was absolutely no chemistry from my end and deep down I knew he was not a reflection of my soul. He is very good looking, but I saw that he was damaged emotionally and always chose the wrong type of women. I was not his type as he liked girls who wore glasses and were of mixed heritage. He said he liked my personality and that I was a “safe” choice. When he said “safe choice”, I knew deep down, there was still that glimmer of hope of a good part of him that knew he deserved someone who was normal. His past girlfriends were either in jail, had severe mental issues or tried to harm him physically. We would have long talk about why he chose them. I told him the type of women he is attracted to physically were not adding to his life in a positive way. During this time, he was a bit unkempt and seemed lost. I felt bad I could not contribute to his life in the way he deserved and needed, but how can you date someone who needs to work on himself and find purpose in his life? I declared myself as his “wing woman” to help him find a decent woman. I did say that he needs to work on himself and prioritize himself first. He was not happy to hear that as he was more interested in just having company despite how crazy the girl might be. He would get mad at me with my advice as it was only given to him because I cared about him as a friend and only wanted the best for him in regards for him to find his soulmate.

Fast forward 3 years and I think he might have found his soulmate. Saw a photo of him and his new girlfriend. She is absolutely beautiful! I am so happy for him! My friend looks refreshed, happy and well kept. She seems to have brought out the best in my friend. What is interesting is she is not his type either! She doesn’t wear glasses nor is of mixed heritage. Maybe he changed his type since then. I don’t know. She looks like an Instagram model, a nice one though. Not the cladily clothed type either. She dresses well and modest. Did my friend take those years to work on himself and reflect on why all those other girls didn’t work out for him? I always knew he was a kind person, sweet, talented, funny and overall a good guy, but the girls he dated stunted him of being the best he could be. It’s really amazing to see a friend’s journey of self discovery and seeing them coming out of a dark period of their life with a partner who might be “the one”. I’d like to think I may have contributed a tiny bit in all of this with all my advice (which he at the time didn’t want to hear). Nethertheless, I was very happy to see him happy. I could see life in his eyes and true happiness. I wish them both the best. As one of my favorite quotes goes: “Where there is life, there is hope and where there is hope, there is life“.

As for my son (who just turned 23) & I, we are planning and getting more excited about moving! We will be leaving Colorado and taking a huge leap of faith in another State. The town we want to move to this summer is so magical, beautiful & fun! There is no other place on planet earth I would want to move to. It’s got everything I have always wanted in a forever home. The funny thing is that I had wanted to go and visit all these cool places around this town and now all those “dream locations” are a few minutes or so away from me which I can visit as many times as I want! There are castles, rolling hills and gurgling rivers for a hopeless romantic as myself to explore. It’s like my dreams are coming true. I will be living my best life and I can’t wait to show everyone the surrounding places of where I live. I might even change my blog name as it will be a new chapter of my life and the best yet! Until my next post take care of yourself and each other.

Forever yours.

xoxo

My little visitor.

Hi friends!

Just a quick check in. I’ve been doing good and I hope all of you are doing well. It’s a winter wonderland outside, but I am feeling warm & fuzzy in my home. This morning I was busy in the kitchen getting breakfast ready when I saw the gentle snowflakes come down. I’m enjoying every snowfall and being in the moment. I later was sitting in my living room about to head upstairs when I wanted to take one more peek outside at the snow. Much to my delight, I saw a very cute visitor sitting on the fence between my neighbor and I. Sometimes we will see a black cat or squirrels on the fence, but today it was the sweetest little visitor. I could’ve just sat there and enjoyed the moment, but I knew I had to capture this video to remember this time in my life.

It’s not a long video, but a short & sweet one to add to my digital journal. Winds of change are swirling- warming my heart and soul of palm trees, sunshine and delicious foods to be had on an open table by a river. The Southern winds are beckoning & enticing me to explore her land and its people. This will be our future home a few States over, ha. One of my friends though we were moving out of the country by that description. No, still living in the States my loves.

One of my favorite movies is called Chocolat (2000). I’ve watched it over 10 times, I just love it so much. I can relate to it. The feeling of not quite fitting in and moving place to place. I’m not a nomad by no means, but growing up I have moved many times. If you get a chance, watch it. I love chocolate and one day hope to take a chocolate candy making class to make for my friends. I was telling Adventure Boy about this movie about the last scene where the winds of change came beckoning once again, luring the main character, Vianne, to her next destination. However, this time it was met with a different outcome. I just think it wrapped up the movie beautifully and shows how everyone eventually finds their place. Go watch the movie! I hope I find our place. I’m such a carefree spirit, but I do long for a place to call home one day. I don’t see myself forever moving from place to place, but the place we plan to move to is where we are actively looking at homes for sale. Exciting times my beloved friends! Don’t worry, when I can, I will still upload videos and keep blogging while still living here. Then when we move, you’ll continue seeing videos.

 But still the clever north wind was not satisfied. It spoke to Vianne of towns yet to be visited, friends in need yet to be discovered, battles yet to be fought…

From the movie: Chocolat

Affectionately yours.

xoxo

Going to the lake & driving through country roads

Hello beautiful friends!

I’m excited to share more of Colorado with you. Adventure boy and I decided to take a drive to a lake we had never been to before. It was lovely to hear the gentle ripple of the waves, which reminded me of the ocean I miss. Although it was tempting to take a swim, the cold weather made it impossible to do that, plus the sign said no swimming. I started out wearing a t-shirt, but eventually had to put on a sweatshirt due to the chilly wind. The lake is located about 30 minutes North of our home, and we met a very friendly elderly couple who were fishing while on the pier. The older gentleman told us his wife had caught 18 fish, while he only caught 15. The lake is truly full of fish! I took video clips of the small things that bring me joy. The reflection of the afternoon sun on the water was mesmerizing, and it reminded me of how beautiful nature can be. The sound of the water splashing against the floating pier brought back memories of Brazil’s rock piers. I love trees, and the tall trees that lined the road reminded me of a childhood fairytale book, with their shadows casting a spell on the ground.

As we drove along the dirt roads in the countryside, I couldn’t help but feel a sense of connection with nature. The vast expanse reminded me of how far we were from civilization. I wondered how the landscape would look during wintertime. We continued to drive higher and higher on the dirt roads, until we were overlooking below into the distant horizon. According to Adventure’s boy watch, we were 7,900 feet above sea level, having climbed a thousand feet! Although we didn’t feel any noticeable change in the air, the dirt we kicked up from driving was evidence of the elevation.

Due to the microphone picking up the howling sounds of the wind, I decided to mute it and instead put music to the video. Hope everyone has a beautiful weekend and enjoy being outside while you can. I know my readers come from all over the world, so I hope you enjoy your day nevertheless. Until next time!

Adventure Boy took this picture. ❤

Affectionately yours.

xoxo

Late August at the lake

Hey friends!

Adventure Boy & went to a lake I don’t think either of us have gone to. We will return when the leaves have changed and it’s at its most beautiful during Autumn. I was pleasantly surprised to see some yellow in the trees & it was a little tease of what is yet to come. Summer this year has been very rainy, which is excellent! Colorado, since I’ve lived here, has been under a drought most summers and therefore everyone has to watch how much water they can use for landscaping. This summer, there was no limit and everyone was free to water as much as possible. I’ve been thinking of getting a water retention barrel for my future home. But the trees are so green and lush due to the large rainfall this summer. Colorado has such gorgeous blue skies!

I’m now at the happiest of my blogging journey once again. For several years, I stopped filming videos like this because I was mad at YouTube for giving me strikes for music I used while everyone else never got strikes. But the main reason was because I used to use a certain software to edit my videos. It was simple, easy to use and I could edit videos fast. It has taken me several years to find an app I love that was similar to that one. Now I feel so much happier I can take videos, edit them and bring them here for you, my darling subscribers. Colorado is beautiful and I want to share all its beauty. Many more adventures to go to and I’ll continue to film them and bring them here for you all.

So, I want to thank Adventure Boy for filming 99% of this video. He was my back up. I was using an app that I had forgotten to change to stabilizer. So whenever I would pan the landscape, it would “tug” or “pull” as I filmed, so it gave a shaky feel to it. I gave Adventure Boy directions of what I wanted and he did an excellent job of filming! I am so proud of him! If I asked, “film starting from the bottom of the water and pan up slowly”, he would do it. His framing with the leaves is all his doing, but he is a photographer who takes pictures as a side hustle. You should see his photos of musicians downtown, very impressive! And I’m not just saying that because he’s the greatest son in the world, I would honestly say that if he wasn’t my son and I saw his photographs. Proud mama bear right here. There’s one clip where I pan with my camera and it’s shaky. That’s my camera. Nothing wrong with my nerves in my hand, it’s the “pulling” or “tugging” of the app I was using.

Usually, I mute the sounds in my videos and allow the music to add to the video, but I wanted to keep the sounds in this video, but still have some music in it. There were sounds of rustling leaves brought on by the warm summer breeze & people having fun swimming. Summer sounds. If we stop once in a while and just allow nature to serenade us, we can appreciate the music earth gives to us. There is just something so sentimental and sweet about that. I read a quote where it says:

“The earth has music, for those that listen”

William Shakespeare

Hope everyone is well! I have a long list of places we will go to and this was the first one to check off! So stay tuned! Love you all!

Lots of love. Always.

New home & videos, who dis?

Hello friends!

How are you guys? So, we moved! From an apartment into a rental townhome. This place is much bigger than our former apartment. It’s exciting as this seems to pave to what owning a home will be like. This townhome has a pretty big yard out back. I filmed this little video for my niece in Brazil as she loves my little videos I make for her. I decided to share it for my subscribers. So, this is the kitchen. Not the most updated kitchen, but it suffices. I’m obsessed with the window as I have not had a kitchen window in years. It feels amazing to see the sky and the planes flying by. Those curtains were there when we came, but I washed & cut them so I could see the blue skies. I’ve had this dining room table and white plates for 8 years now. The candle is battery operated, but that’s our secret for the flickering candle.

The video below shows my view from my bed every morning. There’s a wonderful tree outside that I can’t wait to see once it turns to Autumn.

Waking up to flowers.

I have this vase with wonderful fake flowers. It just gives a pretty and romantic vibe to my mornings.

If my flowers were a painting.

4 pm shadows on the kitchen counter.

You are like a sunflower.

Happy bee.

This park is called Palmer Park and this particular video is at the top dog park. There are two dog parks, this one is at the top of the park where you can see the town below. It’s amazing to know this park is in the middle of town.

Drone’s point of view while behaving.

Taking off…

I’m learning to fly!

Leaving the park.

Until next time! Sorry this is rushed! I might come back and add more to this blog. Enjoy my videos!

I wanted to add another video that Adventure Boy took of his hike with a friend of his. They went to Garden of the Gods.

xoxo

What do you want for your birthday?

Hello everyone!

How is everyone doing? I am beyond happy right now. I feel so good in my soul & mind. Usually, when my birthday rolls around, I am a little aloof about it; remembering the yester years of how my last birthdays were with my mom and how incredibly special they were. I’m not sure if my mom knew 2013 would be her last year on earth celebrating my birthday, but she had a big party dinner for me. She invited all my “aunts” and “uncles” to my birthday party. My “aunts” and “uncles” were people I grew up with down in Brazil. They were my mom’s coworkers or bosses when they all were living down in Brazil. I came to love them as they were my own family and their children were my schoolmates and playmates. So even though I was surrounded by people much older than myself at this surprise birthday dinner, I felt incredibly loved surrounded by all of them. We laughed and reminisced about life living in Brazil and enjoyed our Brazilian dinner. My mom always made sure my birthdays were special, even if it meant her cooking my favorite meal or buying me a bouquet of flowers. She always made it special for me.

After my mom passed away, gone were the special birthdays & the laughter of loved ones echoing in the chamber of my memories. My birthdays became incredibly lonely & quiet. There were times when not one of my friends texted or phoned me to wish me a happy birthday. It felt like the world forgot about me. I would cry wishing my mom was still alive, at least I felt like someone cared about me. Over the years, I just got used to being forgotten. Making friends here in Colorado has been very hard. I love it here, but I feel like I don’t belong. My interests were different from my coworkers and finding friends outside of work was even harder. I just became a loner and got used to my own company, but remained happy nevertheless. I occupied my time doing art related things such as painting, sewing and keeping myself busy. Birthdays came and went and my son made sure he made it special for me by buying a small cake, singing (albeit he would sigh loudly and sing) happy birthday to me and buying me gifts. He would always ask me what I wanted for my birthday and I would always say, “Whatever you get, I am fine with. If it’s from you, I will love it!”

However, since watching some of my favorite YouTubers and seeing how they edit and shoot their videos, my soul and creativity was lit with a match of purpose. That’s all I needed. A match of purpose to fire up my dreams and the release of years of slumping of not feeling that creativity. I have always loved photography, but I also always wanted to dabble in creating beautiful videos. I just never knew what equipment to get or buy to do this. As I continued to watch how the YouTubers created their videos, I began to think I could do the same thing.

So this year, my son asked again. What do you want for your birthday? I replied: I want a drone and a teacup. That’s all I want. I want a drone so I can fly above the trees, over streams and anything else I can capture that I can’t possibly do by just standing on the ground. I want to fly! I want a teacup so I feel like royalty sipping tea wearing my pretty dress and enjoying nature outside. My mom and I used to go to teahouses all the time. For my 15th birthday, instead of a quinceañera, my mom invited my closest friends out to a high tea. We got all dressed up and feasted on little cupcakes, sandwiches and other delicacies. My adoptive mom was half Irish, so I grew up with a lot of European traditions be it in Irish cuisine, traditions or customs such as having afternoon tea. My mom worked with high society women in town and their children went to my school, so I’m sure they gave the idea of the perfect tea house to go to downtown, Belem, in Brazil. It was there that I was introduced to the world of high tea and I have since loved going to any tea house I can find. So asking for my own teacup (I have many other teacups I have inherited from my mom) that belongs to me, was going to be extra special. I plan to get many more teacups, but I wanted my first teacup from my son and he did not disappoint! All I asked for was that it have gold trim and look dainty. It is the teacup of my dreams as it has gold trim and roses, one of my favorite flowers!

My dear friend Micaela also asked what I wanted for my birthday. Again, this year, I was very specific. All I wanted was a leather ancient looking journal with pages that looked old. I wanted to fill it with poetry, thoughts and drawings. Maybe even put a flower inside one of the pages of a special place I might visit in the future. Medieval looking journals to me are so beautiful and makes you wonder what it might have been like for the greatest poets to write in them. Micaela came through and I got both of these items. I could not have been more pleased with them and they are more than I expected. I am over the moon over with my leather journal (website included so you can check out the company and support them) and quill pen. You will seem them appear in my videos.

The leather feels very luxurious and it came inside this lovely linen bag.

The pages are exactly what I wanted to look like, aged looking. They did such a great job in making this look authentic! The craftmanship in creating and making this journal is lovely.

http://www.modestgoods.com

So in love with my journal! The company Modest Goods has a good heart as a portion of the proceeds goes towards proving healthcare and education in Asia. I am a big advocate in helping countries be able to have provisions in educational tools in much needed countries as well as giving opportunities for healthcare for those that need it the most. What a great and thoughtful company!

Well, with any journal, you need a pen right? I specifically asked for a blue feathered quill pen that came with ink. I am also in love with my quill pen. Since taking it out of the box, I have fluffed the feather a bit to make it look more used, lol.

It’s noon and I am so happy. I don’t feel lonely anymore on my birthdays. Even if my so called friends don’t call or text, it’s okay. I’ve got my true friends in my life and that’s all that matters. I’ve got tools to make my dreams come true now and I’m thrilled to bring you along with me as I capture amazing videos of the world I live in. Give me some time to learn how to use the drone and how to edit. Editing videos is nothing new to me, but now that I have bought an anamorphic lens and an app specifically for taking cinematic videos on my phone, it may take a little while to show you my final production. It will be fun to compare my first video to a video after a year. I have so much to learn, but I am excited. The fire is burning once again in my soul and I am hitting the ground running! The first place I want to take you with me is a castle. I live in a State with several castles, but this one I have never been to and I’ve been dreaming about going there for the past couple months. It’s not too far away from me, so it won’t take me too long to get there. The castle awaits…

In conclusion, I’ve discovered it’s okay to ask specifically what you want in life. If it is part of a dream or goal and you are asked what you want, it’s perfectly fine. The past years, I was happy with whatever I got, but there was no desire for a specific thing. This has shown me I was still healing with things in life. But it’s exciting to know that from now on, when asked what I want for my birthday, Mother’s Day or Christmas (or even a small gift for no reason), I exactly know what to say. And that’s okay! As I look back, what makes me happy? What will add purpose to my life? What small thing will add to my journey in life that will bring a smile to my face? When people who love and adore you want to see you happy and ask, what you do you want? Just say it. Maybe it will come true…

Until next time, take care of yourselves and each other.

xoxo

🍁Happy Thanksgiving 🍁🍂

Hi guys!

How are you? I was having a few issues uploading my first podcast on WordPress, but at least the link is there. If you know how I can use a player instead of a link, please let me know. But click the link and it will take you to my podcast. I like the “waves” in the background on the podcast, it’s cute. I’m new to this whole podcasting thing, so please excuse the tiny clip at the end that suddenly gets loud and cuts off. I tried editing that out, but it stayed! Anyway. Stay well and take care of yourselves. I’ll be back very soon!

Much love.

xoxo

Movember: Mental Health Awareness for Men

Hello my sweet souls…

November is the month we should also look out for and take care of the men in our lives, be it our fathers, brothers, uncles, boyfriends, husbands or just a friend. Text, call or visit a male person in your life and ask how they are doing. Not just a simple question, but truly ask them how they are feeling. I recently asked one of my male buddies and he admitted he wasn’t doing too well in a certain part of his life. I searched and gave him a number and website he could go to and seek help. I convinced him to get therapy and he never thought about going to therapy. Whether my buddy will go or not, it’s up to him, I did remind him that I am here for him if he needs anything or just needs to talk. He does have a girlfriend, so he has someone he can also talk to if he needs to. I personally think all year we should be be checking up on each other because sometimes people don’t speak up because no one really doesn’t ask them how they are really doing. People just want their feelings validated and understood. It’s a lonely world out there and sometimes it just takes just one person to acknowledge a hurting heart.

Remember, we are all phenomenal!

Artsy selfie.

Waiting for the soup to heat up.

The black and white photo is my cobalt blue sweater I am obsessed with right now. I bought it back in June to wear this Fall. My ring is something I bought a year ago and it’s a peach sapphire stone with a gold band. It’s so pretty! I wanted to post a colored picture of my sweater so you could see what a striking blue it is! You know how as a kid you waited impatiently for something with both hands on your head? Lol, that’s me. Something beautiful is coming up and I will be taking pictures & a video to show all of you. I can’t wait! It’s very, very beautiful. Just wait and see what it will be!

Twinkling town below.

Took a ride up to Palmer Park. This view always melts my heart. I live up in the hills, so I see this sight all the time, but this is from Palmer Park which is in the middle of town and not in the mountains! It looks like I am in the mountains looking down at the town, but it’s just a park in the middle of town. Behind me is the rest of the town. Palmer Park is huge and has lots of trails for runners, walkers and bikers.

Deformed full moon.

I have an Iphone 11, but my moon still looks deformed! I like this photo nevertheless with someone’s window glowing into the night. Winter is coming and it’s been so cold. The homes are lit up and cozy inside. I’ve had hot chocolate with marshmellow fluff two nights in a row, I’m out of control. Tonight it was soup, but no hot chocolate. The single girl’s life is so adventurous, no? Shout out to all the single women out there! I’m going to be wild and crazy and have tea later on tonight. I recently bought Earl Grey tea, scone mix and clotted cream. Nothing like a British tea with scones!

Until next time my sweet souls. Take care of each other and yourself. The next blog post will be beautiful, I promise! I can’t wait!

Much love.

**Cobalt Heavy Cable Knit Turtleneck Sweater by Boohoo

That view!

Hi guys!

So nice to see you all! A special hello to my new subscribers! I see you & want to welcome you with a great big hug! Stick around!

I got a new iphone about 3 weeks ago and I’m having fun playing with its features. I used to use the OG Movie Maker, remember that? But they don’t make it like they used to. So, I decided to get the app Adobe premiere and used it to edit my video. Here it is. It’s my first time using my new iphone to edit, so don’t laugh! I’m like a toddler with my editing skills on my iphone. It will get better, I promise. I wasn’t trying to be perfect in today’s video, I just wanted to shoot something and upload it. It took me a while to find the perfect song to go along with this vimeo video. In other news, wait until you see where I’ll be in November! It will blow your mind and my iphone will capture it all! It cost a pretty penny to get tickets, but it has been my dream to go to it for the past 2 years!

Take a ride with us as we ride around my favorite street, Peterson Road. Gosh, I love this road so much.

https://vimeo.com/553011285

Maybe next time I’ll take you guys on a ride to one of my favorite parks. The views are amazing because the park is high above the town. Stay tuned.

Sorry! I didn’t know my video would be so big! Apologies for seeing my mug so huge! I don’t know how to make it smaller. :O

Until next time. xoxo

One day

For my broken hearted single subscribers out there. Don’t lose hope. There is a beautiful soul out there just waiting to meet you. The timing will be right. Don’t rush it.