I have covid & here’s my advice

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Hey guys!

Happy New Year & I hope everyone has had a great Christmas. As you can tell by the title, I am pretty sure I am recovering from covid. At this point of my sickness, my nurse said it doesn’t make sense to get a test. I will have a blood test later and see if I have any antibodies as a result from being sick with covid. Here are some points I want to show you of what I experienced and how to make it a bit easier if you catch it too. Disclaimer though is that everyone experiences it differently and mine has been pretty mild thus far. In fact, so mild, I’ve had worse colds than what I have been through. These points are from what I experienced and I am only writing about them as a generalization that most people experience.

First symptoms

By the time you start coughing a dry cough, you are mostly likely already sick and have been spreading it. Luckily, I wasn’t out in public when I started having a dry cough for two days. This period is contagious & most people, unfortunately, may been exposed being around you. I honestly thought it was just a dry cough because of the dry air or dust. I didn’t think too much of it. On New Years Eve (a Friday), both eyes started to get teary and I was sneezing a lot. My throat didn’t feel too bad, perhaps slightly scratchy, so I thought I was coming down with a cold. I was a bit disappointed as my 4 year streak of not being sick in regards to a cold was coming to an end. I had been so proud of myself for keeping healthy and avoiding getting sick. I just sat in bed and drank tea, hoping this would calm my cough.

Main Symptoms

Saturday morning, January 1st, I woke up to feeling extremely weak, muscle aches, a high fever and just overall feeling horrible. I could barely walk to the bathroom. I thought this was the flu! All day, my fever went up and down. One second I was hot as hell and wearing a tank top. The next moment I was putting on a long sleeved shirt and wrapping myself in a warm blanket and drinking tea. It was like this all day. The fevers wouldn’t let up. It was this point, I should have gone to Urgent Care, but I didn’t. Sunday night I was shivering laying in bed as if I was in an igloo only wearing shorts even though I was wearing a long sleeved shirt and under several blankets. Having trouble breathing never occurred except just the usual stuffy nose congestion. I had high fevers off and on until Monday and it finally broke Tuesday. My dry coughs developed into a productive cough and I was coughing so much; my stomach muscles were hurting immensely that it was painful to even take deep breathes. I needed to take deep breathes anyway, but doing so meant to be in pain for a few seconds. I had many nights of putting an ice pack on my side. Tuesday to Thursday was mostly coughing up mucus. I was eating like a bird every 24 hours for about 5 or 6 days. I could only eat tiny pieces of a chocolate bar or a cookie. I was afraid to eat because I constantly coughing. I also noticed sweating even doing the smallest chore. Sweating is a symptom. So did I have the “flurona”?

By Friday to Monday (January 10), my stomach muscle pain had gone away. Before my stomach muscles pain had started, I had been already exercising and doing ab workouts. So even with ab workouts, all the constant coughing really worked up other stomach muscles. Imagine if I had not been working out! I was finally able to talk to a nurse (my main nurse was out sick so I had someone else). By speaking to me, listening to all my symptoms and listening to my cough on Tuesday via a telemed video phone call (today is Thursday), he prescribed me Prednisone since I have a history of asthma. The nurse pretty much said it sounded like I had gotten covid and was “on the mend” by this point. I asked how much longer I had feeling this way & coughing and he said everyone is different. As long as I’m getting better is all that matters. The pharmacy line usually is open and I can drive right up, but my son said there was a very long line at the pharmacy when he went to pick up my Prednisone. They told him they have been busy all day.

No fevers since last week, but I noticed a new symptom and it is stomach pains, nausea & indigestion. My nausea comes random, but not often. The stomach pains are different from the pains from coughing so much. Luckily, this symptom is going away and I am eating better and regularly. I’m feeling better, I just have this lingering productive cough and a little nasal congestion. Luckily, I never lost my taste or smell throughout this entire ordeal. Trust me, I was going around sniffing things like my wax candles & my favorite perfume (Eternity for Women by Calvin Klein ahem…) just to be sure I still had my ability to smell things. I rarely get indigestion, so having it every time I ate something has been new to me. Luckily, the indigestion is slowly going away and I can eat in peace! My worse day was that one day on Saturday with the high fevers and muscle aches.

Overall, my pneumonia and bronchitis in the past years have been worse. I can’t say this for everyone, but this has been my experience having covid.

Food Advice

My friend who has taken care of her friends who have had covid told me to eat lots of bananas, anything with calcium and to drink a lot of liquids! Also, continue with taking vitamins, especially Vitamin D. I know eating coconut milk popsicles was a God send for my throat from coughing. It was such a relief! Coconut milk popsicles are my new best friends. You can’t ever tear us apart! I also made myself banana & strawberry smoothies. CUT DOWN ON SALT whilst having covid as one of the symptoms is having a rapid heartbeat. I am on blood pressure pills, but I already am on a salt free diet or low sodium foods. My anxiety was non-existent for six months prior to this, but it skyrocketed during this time because every day brought in a new symptom. If there’s a lot of salt intake, this could possibly increase your heart rate with Covid and increase your anxiety at the same time.

Alternative healing

I’m all about natural healing and have been into Rife Frequency and Binaural Beat frequency healing the past 3 yrs. Prior to getting sick with covid, I had been listening to DNA repairment and building up my immune system by listening weekly to my favorite frequencies. I think this might have helped in getting my immune system ready to battle! I could have been a lot worse! I truly believe in frequency healing. Our bodies are made up to 60% of water and studies have shown that listening to certain frequencies can change your cells, kill viruses & bacteria and repair your DNA. Sometimes when I get a headache, instead of taking Tylenol, I just listen to 5-10 minutes of a specific frequency for headache relief & the headache goes away.

Everyone experiences it differently

Speaking to some of my friends who currently have covid, one of my friends can not taste her foods or drinks. My other friend has only had mild symptoms, but has had indigestion and has felt tired. Overall, we’ve all had the same symptoms of coughing a lot.

Final Advice

Try to watch movies, tv shows or do anything to keep your mind occupied. The more you think of how worse you might get and picture yourself in a hospital, it will create chaos in your body & unnecessary psychological stress on your immune system. I limited myself in watching funny things for while because every time I dared laughed, it would lead me into a coughing fit. If you need to cry, just do it. Let it out. I cried one day off & on for 9 hours, but I paid dearly for it. I was coughing up clear mucus for the next two days as a result. Crying only increased my nasal congestion and drainage. Hopefully, there is not a next time with this, but I will definitely not tear up and soldier on. I just felt so vulnerable and feeling sorry for myself. I missed my mom and I had to let it out. I didn’t realize my sadness would add 2 more days of coughing up phlegm. No mas! If I feel a tear try to push itself out my eye I think, “Not today!” and try to suck it back in. Lol. Suck back in a tear? Is that even possible? You get what I mean.

If you need to talk to someone, do so. It will help you in a thousand ways. I’m thankful for my friend Micaela. She’s been an angel to me throughout this whole ordeal and I can’t thank her enough. The feeling of knowing someone is praying for you or just being there for you can help you recover faster.

I am still recovering. I don’t know how long I’ll have this lingering cough, but I feel I am getting better. I am currently taking Prednisone, so my lungs will feel better and get a break. The hardest part has been allowing my body to just heal itself naturally and not continue exercising. I feel like a slug. I’ve lost weight because I was hardly eating. I will gradually get back to my daily exercise regimen, but I would never go full cold turkey in exercising for 30 minutes out of the blue. But I do miss exercising & I look forward to doing it. I’m glad I can laugh at funny things and not get into a coughing fit. Staying positive and being gentle to what I think is vital. Your self talk influences your body overall. Happy thoughts=happy body.

If you have it, I hope you feel better! I truly do. Until next time. Take care of yourselves & each other.

Love always.

Movember: Mental Health Awareness for Men

Hello my sweet souls…

November is the month we should also look out for and take care of the men in our lives, be it our fathers, brothers, uncles, boyfriends, husbands or just a friend. Text, call or visit a male person in your life and ask how they are doing. Not just a simple question, but truly ask them how they are feeling. I recently asked one of my male buddies and he admitted he wasn’t doing too well in a certain part of his life. I searched and gave him a number and website he could go to and seek help. I convinced him to get therapy and he never thought about going to therapy. Whether my buddy will go or not, it’s up to him, I did remind him that I am here for him if he needs anything or just needs to talk. He does have a girlfriend, so he has someone he can also talk to if he needs to. I personally think all year we should be be checking up on each other because sometimes people don’t speak up because no one really doesn’t ask them how they are really doing. People just want their feelings validated and understood. It’s a lonely world out there and sometimes it just takes just one person to acknowledge a hurting heart.

Remember, we are all phenomenal!

Artsy selfie.
Waiting for the soup to heat up.

The black and white photo is my cobalt blue sweater I am obsessed with right now. I bought it back in June to wear this Fall. My ring is something I bought a year ago and it’s a peach sapphire stone with a gold band. It’s so pretty! I wanted to post a colored picture of my sweater so you could see what a striking blue it is! You know how as a kid you waited impatiently for something with both hands on your head? Lol, that’s me. Something beautiful is coming up and I will be taking pictures & a video to show all of you. I can’t wait! It’s very, very beautiful. Just wait and see what it will be!

Twinkling town below.

Took a ride up to Palmer Park. This view always melts my heart. I live up in the hills, so I see this sight all the time, but this is from Palmer Park which is in the middle of town and not in the mountains! It looks like I am in the mountains looking down at the town, but it’s just a park in the middle of town. Behind me is the rest of the town. Palmer Park is huge and has lots of trails for runners, walkers and bikers.


Deformed full moon.

I have an Iphone 11, but my moon still looks deformed! I like this photo nevertheless with someone’s window glowing into the night. Winter is coming and it’s been so cold. The homes are lit up and cozy inside. I’ve had hot chocolate with marshmellow fluff two nights in a row, I’m out of control. Tonight it was soup, but no hot chocolate. The single girl’s life is so adventurous, no? Shout out to all the single women out there! I’m going to be wild and crazy and have tea later on tonight. I recently bought Earl Grey tea, scone mix and clotted cream. Nothing like a British tea with scones!

Until next time my sweet souls. Take care of each other and yourself. The next blog post will be beautiful, I promise! I can’t wait!

Much love.

**Cobalt Heavy Cable Knit Turtleneck Sweater by Boohoo

How To Discuss a Hard Topic with your Partner

Hey guys!

Tis, I. I have returned. I see I have some new subscribers and it makes me happy. So thank you & welcome!

I’m sure you have seen the video of Gabby Petito and her fiance when they were stopped by the police officer. In the video, Gabby is seen visibly upset when speaking to the officer because she and her fiance had been “fighting” all morning. The officer first made sure the environment was safe for him & for her. He told her to step out of the car and speak to him alone & away from her fiance. This was a smart move and I’ll explain why.

If a hard topic is to be brought up between two people in a relationship and you both know it could turn heated, then the first thing you need to do is:

REGULATE YOUR BODY

Gabby was away and began to speak to the officer. From the video, you can see Gabby start to regulate her body as I am sure her heartrate was up and body tense from arguing. The officer offered her to sit in his car so she could cool off, “relax a little bit”. Basically, he was helping her regulate her body. Obviously, starting a hard topic in the middle of jogging or doing strenuous work, is not the smartest move when beginning a hard topic with your significant other. Your body is already working overdrive and your thoughts won’t be as clear. Make sure your significant other is already calm and relaxed. Of course, make sure you are as well. If you need to take 10 deep breathes (4 seconds in, 4 seconds out), just do it. Even if it’s in front of your partner. You can do them together.

ADDRESS THE IMPORTANCE OF THE RELATIONSHIP

Even though the officer & Gabby were strangers, he acknowledged her interests and made her feel good and important. In the police body cam you can hear Gabby state she wanted to start a YouTube channel and start blogging. Being a blogger myself for many years, I can understand her excitement to want to speak to the world of her thoughts on a blogging platform and connect with strangers from all over the world. Unfortunately, Gabby stated that her fiance was not supportive of her dream to become a Youtuber or blogger. He was not addressing the importance of her nor of her future dreams. The officer readily told Gabby that she was not in trouble and was not getting arrested. This is very important too when beginning discussing a hard topic. Addressing the importance of the relationship is vital as it makes the other person feel important and not attacked and get in defense mode. This gives the person the feeling of being safe around you & that you are working as team to discuss the hard topic. The officer did this by reinforcing that Gabby was safe (at that moment) and she was not in trouble. He wanted her to know they were a team working together to resolve this problem she and her fiance were facing at that moment. This should not feel like a boxing match where both people are on opposite sides. Hard topics can be cheating, divorce, telling someone their loved one passed away etc.

DISCUSS SAFELY

This can mean 2 things. Never discuss hard topics in an environment that could turn deadly such as kitchen, on a bridge or near a waterfall. You get the picture. I am not saying get in a padded room, but going somewhere quiet and far from anything that can be used against you if it does get out of control is important. Using words that conjure up negativity will only bring on the defense mode especially for topics about cheating & divorce or even each other’s mother-in-laws. Begin with words like “I” and “This is how I’m feeling about this…”. Validate their feelings, which may be very hard if you are discussing how you caught them cheating on you. Remember, this may sound almost unreal and probably level of impossibility, but it’s just a general way of making sure you and they are in a safe environment with little (if you can help it) to no blame with words.

Healthy problem solving takes practice and not everyone goes into a new relationship with that mindset. Some may come into a new relationship from an abusive relationship and have no idea how to problem solve with you on your first fight as a couple. The good thing is that anyone can learn to problem solve as team and do it in a healthy way;

What inspired me to write this particular topic was because of how Gabby and her fiance could have learned this approach to fighting or arguing and not have gotten into what ended in tragedy. Relationships are not perfect nor should they. But learning to understand each other before a hard topic can create a lower outcome of a very negative situation for both parties.

Until next time my loves. Take care of yourselves and each other, especially when it comes to discussing hard topics. RIP Gabby.

Much love.

x

That view!

Hi guys!

So nice to see you all! A special hello to my new subscribers! I see you & want to welcome you with a great big hug! Stick around!

I got a new iphone about 3 weeks ago and I’m having fun playing with its features. I used to use the OG Movie Maker, remember that? But they don’t make it like they used to. So, I decided to get the app Adobe premiere and used it to edit my video. Here it is. It’s my first time using my new iphone to edit, so don’t laugh! I’m like a toddler with my editing skills on my iphone. It will get better, I promise. I wasn’t trying to be perfect in today’s video, I just wanted to shoot something and upload it. It took me a while to find the perfect song to go along with this vimeo video. In other news, wait until you see where I’ll be in November! It will blow your mind and my iphone will capture it all! It cost a pretty penny to get tickets, but it has been my dream to go to it for the past 2 years!

Take a ride with us as we ride around my favorite street, Peterson Road. Gosh, I love this road so much.

Maybe next time I’ll take you guys on a ride to one of my favorite parks. The views are amazing because the park is high above the town. Stay tuned.

Sorry! I didn’t know my video would be so big! Apologies for seeing my mug so huge! I don’t know how to make it smaller. :O

Until next time. xoxo

That’s what she said

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Hi guys!

First of all, I want to thank you all for stopping by my blog posts. I’m trying to write more these days. I’ve been dealing with anxiety, or that’s what I thought it was, for the past 2 years. I’ve never had it before and maybe it was anxiety with a sprinkle of panic attacks. However, with being able to walk more and healing from my knee surgery, I want to drive again. I’m sure I can drive just fine, but it’s my mind that is stopping me. Tai Chi, yoga and listening to frequency music has helped with my anxiety, but something was missing in order for me to feel confident again. Overall, I am very happy in my life (never been happier) and it has nothing to do with depression which I don’t have. My nurse suggested I speak with a therapist. I said, sure, that would be great! I spoke to my new therapist via telecom today and she was absolutely amazing! I loved her calming and soothing voice as well as her delightful personality. I told her about my near crash incidents and how I felt “traumatized” by it. I used the word traumatized in casual passing and not so much as a self diagnosis. I was talking a mile a minute to her about it. Afterwards, she calmly told me I was not demonstrating anxiety or even panic attack symptoms, but of a traumatized person just the way I was breathing and speaking to her. She has no idea what other trauma I’ve experienced my life. But with what she plans to teach me in dealing with trauma will help with my past as well & that’s a great thing. I was specifically asking her for help with gaining confidence in driving again. It’s great to finally have a diagnosis of what and how I’ve been feeling.

Trauma.

There. I said it.

I’ve been traumatized.

The streets I used to drive at are hilly and curvy. It was at those spots that I would almost have accidents or have the fear of getting into an accident. My right foot was so weak, it would slip off my brake pedal and I’d have to use my emergency break to stop as a result. Things like this happened when I had at least 4 clients in my car & the responsibility of putting their lives at risk, was too much for me. I loved my clients and would never want to see them get hurt on my behalf. This caused a great deal of stress to me knowing I could be a liability to my company. As a result I had to quit my job since it was a 90% driving job and working with adults with disabilities. Thankfully, I can return back if I want. I miss & love my clients, but I think those days are over. The job itself was stressful and I’m currently working on something online which I will showcase soon here on WordPress. Anywho. Come to find out the specific car I had been driving was recalled by Ford for brake issues! So when my son drives and I’m in the passenger seat, my heart starts beating fast as if I’m reliving that moment in the past where I didn’t know if I’d whiz past a red light or potentially hit the car in front of me. I’d get flashbacks. Just so you know, I have not been in an accident in many years and when I did, it was not my fault. Someone had hit my car from behind because they were text messaging leaving me with a very achy back and a rattled mind. Another time I got in an accident, I was literally not even moving! I was in a drive-through and someone rammed into me and took off! A hit and run at a drive-through! They quickly got out of their car, came to my window, asked if my son & I were ok (he was 5 years old at that time)… got back in their car and took off!

So my first assignment until next week is to practice breathing in for 3-5 seconds and breathing out for 3-5 seconds three times a day. We will be training my brain to get used to the deep breathing because she said my body and mind is fighting against it due to the “fight or flight” syndrome. The breathing exercises is retraining the body and mind to not think that when things trigger me. She says we will work on several steps until I can drive again and not be traumatized when I see those streets or traffic lights where I could’ve gone into incoming traffic in a busy highway.

So I’m breathing in….and breathing out. I felt much better after doing this simple exercise a few times after I hung up with her. I’m looking forward to dealing with my trauma with a professional. I love Tai Chi and other relaxing things I do, but it’s not the same as speaking to a professional who explains why you feel that way and how to deal with it. I’m so excited about life and its potential, but this is something that I’m happy to be doing to improve the quality of my mental health. People say, that happy people shouldn’t need therapy. But what most people don’t realize is that even the happiest of people still need help with other issues in their lives and there is absolutely nothing wrong with seeking help for it.

Here’s to all those who want to level up in life and only want the best for themselves! Wooo! Until next time!

Hugs. xo

Hair nightmare & Snapchat being creepy

Hello everyone!

How are you? I am actually back on here. Sooner than I expected, but I wanted to jot down some things only because I found them somewhat amusing and wanted to immortalize it here in my digital journal. Last Friday I got my hair done, something I have not done at a salon in about 2.5 years or so. My highlights are quite expensive and I’ve had to be extra careful in how I’ve spent my money the past years. I’ve missed my highlights as I’ve always had them most of my life. Everything was going well as I caught up with my hairstylist. Since I had been absent, she has gotten a boyfriend, engaged, married and gave birth to a son who is now one years old. I wanted a balayage which is an ombre sort of hair color from the bottom up. After 4 hours sitting in the chair, she was done. Much to my dismay, I did not get what I had wanted. What happened to her magic? I wasn’t happy. I wanted highlights framing my face, which she did, but the color was very blond, almost platinum. Gasp! I wanted a softer, caramel looking highlights. The rest of my hair was so dark and I didn’t like the contrast, it was too much. Feeling defeated that I spent quite a large amount of money on my hair after years of not going, I left the salon. I later bought some hair color and hoped it would darken my highlights the next day. After coloring my hair, yes, I know-a major hair sin! But I was desperate! Nevertheless, I colored my hair (again) and took a shower. While in the shower, I noticed my ends looked grey! No, no, nooooo! This can’t be happening? How? Well, obviously the hair gods were furious at me and wanted to punish me for doing the absolute sin of recoloring after going to the salon. I dried my hair and to my shock, my highlights that were once platinum blond were now grey! The chemical mixture of the box hair dye didn’t mix well with my professional salon dyed hair. Which reminds me of this scene of Anne of Green Gables when she tried to color her hair black and it came out green! Haha! Ugh, the struggles! I feel ya pain girl! Can I just remind everyone that I am obsessed with Anne of Green Gables?

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The last time my hair was grey looking was when I had to put baby powder in my hair for a play in Brazil to play an old lady and I was in High School! I was not going to succumb to just walking around in society with grey highlights! Grey balayage is just too weird. I turned to YouTube, of all place, to see how I could fix this travesty. Turns out I just needed 2 items to get back my highlights. All I needed were several lemons and a little bit of conditioner; mix those babies up and vavoom, you’ve got the magic potion. I watched 2 videos of girls who experienced the same hair perils I was going through. I was pleasantly pleased to see that they reversed their grey toned hair. My son curiously stared at my grey highlights and said, “It….doesn’t look that bad!” I appreciated his sweet words, but I knew deep down, he was horrified.

This afternoon, I squeezed a bag of lemons as I prepared to reverse the grey highlights. What started with me daintily putting the mixture on a comb and putting it on my hair gingerly and carefully, ended up with me 5 minutes later dumping the rest of the mixture on my hair and massaging my head. Patience much? I got all my ends saturated and especially my frames. This was a battle of reversing the evil grey tones of my hair. After a few minutes, I saw the blond come back and the grey gone! It’s a miracle! Thank you lemons, my little yellow super heroes.

Highlights are rockin’ again and everything is good in paradise as per photo below.

Things are going well. I have 3 major goals to be completed by June or July. I think having goals in life is good, but also short term goals are good too. I feel like I am enjoying this time in life after several years of having hard times. I pause and thank God for allowing me get through it. I’ve never been happier! The will to be the best I can be, to pursue my dreams and to stay focus has been my main priority. I continue to work very hard in doing my physical therapy. Some days I feel like a slug and don’t want to, but then I remember how far I’ve come. For a while, I thought I would never completely recover. Then some days I realize I have improved, they are just little subtle improvements that show themselves, but it is up to me to see it. I just get so excited about my future & want to go out there and conquer the world; I get squirly about it. Slow & steady. Everything happens when it’s supposed to.

Brown eyes. No grey contact lenses today.

I was playing around with my Snapchat when it suddenly decided to turn creepy on me. I’m not sure if this has happened to anyone else, but listen to this. I was trying different filters on my phone. I had not pushed the record button when suddenly I was no longer in control of my camera! Maybe it was a glitch? My hand was holding my phone steady and not moving. My camera was facing me, but what was being shown on my phone was the ceiling and it was moving. It only happened for 5 seconds, but it looked like my camera was looking around my room on my phone. Maybe it was a glitch and my Snapchat recorded my movements earlier and was just showing it on my phone. Nevertheless, it was strange and creepy. I quickly closed the app and felt it. It was hot. That’s enough, you hot phone! You need to cool off!

When you think you’re having a bad day, remember there are others who are having worse days. It brings it all into perspective. Be gentle to yourself. Love yourself. We all have a purpose, even if it’s just to make a stranger smile. Until next time which will be soon. I promise.

Much love xoxo

What kind of person are you attracting?

Hey everyone!

How’s everyone been? So yesterday I was going through my feed on YouTube of recommended videos and I came across something that really opened my eyes.

I usually don’t watch dating videos, but I thought, why not?

I was pleasantly surprised of what I discovered! It now all makes sense why certain past relationships ended badly and others ended amicably. You will discover that there are woundmates & soulmates that you will encounter in life. I must admit, after watching this video, I was a woundmate. I also had relationships with guys who were woundmates as well, which now makes total sense of why it was just drama with them. My last real relationship was 5 years ago, that’s when we broke up on May 2014. We had a 5 year long distance relationship. He was a woundmate and I was in the process of becoming my own soulmate.

I’m now my own soulmate and I now completely understand the differences of wanting to be with someone and the need to be with someone. Once you feel whole within yourself, it becomes easier to choose others who are whole themselves and avoid a disastrous relationship. The older you get, you just want to be happy with yourself, your partner and in general. You don’t want to deal with drama. Relationships aren’t perfect, but this does give a clearer understanding of how to identify a woundmate and why things are going the way they are in your relationship or marriage.

This also will make it quite clear why your partner and yourself are having the easiest relationship you’ve ever had and why the communication is better than you’ve had with anyone else. Congratulations, you’ve met another soulmate.

Here I am summarizing what I learned from the video.

Here is the video explaining in detail the difference between a woundmate & a soulmate.

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When your heart & brain are at war!

Hello!

I was watching the latest episode of The Bachelorette yesterday and I had to share my opinion about it like everyone on the planet! Watch this clip…

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What did you notice? A textbook example of when one has a terrible war within themselves of the heart & mind. Clearly we all see what Hannah doesn’t. Luke is a master manipulator and has Hannah in his web. Hannah does want to see the good in him & has given him a million chances to prove to her how he feels. However, he hasn’t. All Hannah needs is for him to clearly explain how he feels about her.

The last statement made me wonder how deep she truly is confused. “What if I let him go & he’s the one I’m supposed to be with?!”

NO! Anyone who leaves you that confused is not worth your time! A guy who leaves you confused during the time you’re getting to know him so early on is a red flag. Her heart knew what she needed to do thus telling her brain, but her emotions were clouding her reasoning.

I was learning recently the interesting connection of how the heart & brain work together. It may sound incredibly simple & an easy formula for love, but it’s very complex.

When Hannah was around the other guys, she was excited to see them, she was hopping & her voice got higher as a result of a natural connection. That’s normal & how it’s supposed to be when you like someone.

Yes, I know. It’s a reality show. I watch it for character study and to relax.

In other news, I had a fantastic appointment with my neurosurgeon today. I had a follow up at his northern office near Denver so he could see how well my surgery site was healing. The neurosurgeon took one look, stated it looked “beautiful”. It made me giggle because the past month that’s all I’ve heard from all the nurses, doctors, Physical & Occupational Therapists. The neurosurgeon was the last person to see it and clearly was pleased. The surgical scar is thin as a thread. I thought it would be a 6 inch scar with 1 inch in width, but it’s actually very, very thin! Eventually it will fade, but I’ll proudly show it off! I don’t care! Battle scars is in vogue according to me! I also no longer have restrictions (bending, lifting or twisting) and have been cleared to do strength exercises from my PT who has been coming to my house the past 3 weeks. I do need one more MRI (not STAT) for the neurosurgeon to see how the spinal cord is healing. He just wants to make sure it hasn’t shifted or anything, but overall says he has no concern of how I’m healing or walking. Everyday I see little improvements and it gets me so excited! After the knee surgery next year, cleared by my orthopaedic surgeon to do physical activities & am walking fine, I will try indoor sky diving up in Denver. I’m not going to go crazy with doing things, I’ll still behave and take precautions. The thirst is real to being the adventurous & free spirited girl I’ve always been. For several months I wondered why this was happening, but I think I know why now & I’m at peace with it. It makes sense & it’s a beautiful thing.

xoxo 💋