Merry Christmas!

Hey everyone!

Hope you all are doing alright & hanging in there. Just wanted to pop in quickly & show our ornaments on our new white tree. Each one signifies something important that happened that year for my son & I. I only showed half of the ornaments as not to make the video too long. The blue, red & gold ball ornaments are just decorations, but I am obsessed with them if you couldn’t tell. The wolf signifies the year we visited a wolf sanctuary. The astronaut was the year we visited the space museum in Florida. The sweet black angel was the year I taught drama to 4th grade girls in the inner city of Camden; they also sang a song. I played the flute during my 4th grade year in school in a band so I got the paper ornament of the musical notes. Someone laughed at my crazy looking bunny ornament that I posted a picture of once, so it’s not shown this year even though the funny looking bunny is hanging on the tree at the moment. Yes, I got a bit salty as a result. He will make a glorious return next year on video so everyone can see what my mom gave me when I was 5 yrs old. I love the handmade ornaments my son made when he was just a wee little bundle of joy as a 3 & 5 yr old. He’s 19 now and still very much adorable. He got his ornament this year that summed up the crazy year of 2020; I didn’t show it. Maybe next year. Anyway, have a great day & I’ll catch you later!

What is happening?!

Hi guys!

It’s been a hot minute since I’ve last wrote on here. I haven’t had the time to sit down and compose a well thought out blog. Surgery for my knee is set for next month if all things fall into place and everything looks good. I’m both excited and nervous, but trying my best to not get further stressed with the coronavirus or should I say covid-19?

So, we are all being told to stay indoors to stop the spread of the virus. You would THINK after all the virus, zombie, monsters & alien invasion movies we all love (hello “Independence Day & War of the Worlds” two of my favorites) that we’d be prepared for such global catastrophic events, but we’re not. Instead we see people going out buying toilet paper and hoarding them. Why? This isn’t a diarrhea type of disease. Doesn’t make sense. I’ve been sitting here analyzing society as a whole and how we deal with things. This is new and something we haven’t experienced at this level. Thankfully, we have technology that allows us to communicate instantly. Imagine how people in towns 30 or 40 years ago would be able to deal with this? People in the past were just as panicked as we are today in the year 2020. Can you imagine someone from this year talking to someone in NYC in the year 1832 when cholera brought the city to a standstill? Same panic albeit we have technology now, which has pros and cons about it. What have we learned? Have we improved our way of dealings with this? I’m not taking this subject lightly as I have asthma and am concerned as I want to be healthy for my surgery. However, the more I think about situations that run around in my head that haven’t happened or will probably never happen, I have learned to control those thoughts. This crisis is not just a physical situation, but also an emotional, mental and financial state of affairs for everyone. I feel like we’ll be going through another phase of panic of financial sorts when people can’t buy food due to not being able to work. Hopefully we won’t reach that point where it will become complete lawlessness.

I like to self motivate myself when I get stressed and I found this lovely video a few days ago. It deals with depression (I don’t have depression) and anxiety. I hope you find it useful! I know I definitely benefited from the counting backwards from 5 for anxiety. It worked for me and will continue to use it.

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On a positive note, I have seen compassion and humanity though the mess of greediness and selfishness of society. I love hearing stories of people helping others. Like my favorite quote says, “Where there is life, there is hope“.

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We do need to find humor though! We need to laugh, we need to smile.

I’ll be jumping back on WordPress soon. I don’t know when, hopefully when everything has settled down and post surgery. Thank you to my readers and stay strong! A huge welcome to my newest subscribers! Where ever you are, be safe and take care of yourself!

Much love. xoxo

What kind of person are you attracting?

Hey everyone!

How’s everyone been? So yesterday I was going through my feed on YouTube of recommended videos and I came across something that really opened my eyes.

I usually don’t watch dating videos, but I thought, why not?

I was pleasantly surprised of what I discovered! It now all makes sense why certain past relationships ended badly and others ended amicably. You will discover that there are woundmates & soulmates that you will encounter in life. I must admit, after watching this video, I was a woundmate. I also had relationships with guys who were woundmates as well, which now makes total sense of why it was just drama with them. My last real relationship was 5 years ago, that’s when we broke up on May 2014. We had a 5 year long distance relationship. He was a woundmate and I was in the process of becoming my own soulmate.

I’m now my own soulmate and I now completely understand the differences of wanting to be with someone and the need to be with someone. Once you feel whole within yourself, it becomes easier to choose others who are whole themselves and avoid a disastrous relationship. The older you get, you just want to be happy with yourself, your partner and in general. You don’t want to deal with drama. Relationships aren’t perfect, but this does give a clearer understanding of how to identify a woundmate and why things are going the way they are in your relationship or marriage.

This also will make it quite clear why your partner and yourself are having the easiest relationship you’ve ever had and why the communication is better than you’ve had with anyone else. Congratulations, you’ve met another soulmate.

Here I am summarizing what I learned from the video.

Here is the video explaining in detail the difference between a woundmate & a soulmate.

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When your heart & brain are at war!

Hello!

I was watching the latest episode of The Bachelorette yesterday and I had to share my opinion about it like everyone on the planet! Watch this clip…

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What did you notice? A textbook example of when one has a terrible war within themselves of the heart & mind. Clearly we all see what Hannah doesn’t. Luke is a master manipulator and has Hannah in his web. Hannah does want to see the good in him & has given him a million chances to prove to her how he feels. However, he hasn’t. All Hannah needs is for him to clearly explain how he feels about her.

The last statement made me wonder how deep she truly is confused. “What if I let him go & he’s the one I’m supposed to be with?!”

NO! Anyone who leaves you that confused is not worth your time! A guy who leaves you confused during the time you’re getting to know him so early on is a red flag. Her heart knew what she needed to do thus telling her brain, but her emotions were clouding her reasoning.

I was learning recently the interesting connection of how the heart & brain work together. It may sound incredibly simple & an easy formula for love, but it’s very complex.

When Hannah was around the other guys, she was excited to see them, she was hopping & her voice got higher as a result of a natural connection. That’s normal & how it’s supposed to be when you like someone.

Yes, I know. It’s a reality show. I watch it for character study and to relax.

In other news, I had a fantastic appointment with my neurosurgeon today. I had a follow up at his northern office near Denver so he could see how well my surgery site was healing. The neurosurgeon took one look, stated it looked “beautiful”. It made me giggle because the past month that’s all I’ve heard from all the nurses, doctors, Physical & Occupational Therapists. The neurosurgeon was the last person to see it and clearly was pleased. The surgical scar is thin as a thread. I thought it would be a 6 inch scar with 1 inch in width, but it’s actually very, very thin! Eventually it will fade, but I’ll proudly show it off! I don’t care! Battle scars is in vogue according to me! I also no longer have restrictions (bending, lifting or twisting) and have been cleared to do strength exercises from my PT who has been coming to my house the past 3 weeks. I do need one more MRI (not STAT) for the neurosurgeon to see how the spinal cord is healing. He just wants to make sure it hasn’t shifted or anything, but overall says he has no concern of how I’m healing or walking. Everyday I see little improvements and it gets me so excited! After the knee surgery next year, cleared by my orthopaedic surgeon to do physical activities & am walking fine, I will try indoor sky diving up in Denver. I’m not going to go crazy with doing things, I’ll still behave and take precautions. The thirst is real to being the adventurous & free spirited girl I’ve always been. For several months I wondered why this was happening, but I think I know why now & I’m at peace with it. It makes sense & it’s a beautiful thing.

xoxo 💋

 

 

Day 31. March Blog Challenge

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What word would you sum up for the past month?

Dreams.

If you don’t have dreams, there’s no hope or motivation. What’s your dream job? Where’s your dream location to live? Dream house? Dream man/woman? Dream vacation?

It doesn’t necessarily have to have the word dream in what you want in life, but maybe a little desire & there’s nothing wrong in wanting to pursue it. To live life with “2nd best” isn’t motivating at all. You deserve better than that. To go after something your heart truly desires & that you know will make you happy (most everyone wants to find happiness), by all means, go for it. This doesn’t exclude those of us who are already rich in love, live in a nice hime, have a happy family & community. Even the happiest people on earth have dreams & it might surprise you what it is! Quietly wonders what Tibetan monks dream about…

Anyways, this past month has had me think of little things I want to do in the near future. This has motivated me a lot on days that I have felt discouraged. I was telling my Twitter followers how I often feel like a wild horse. Wild horses run free. I have felt pent up lately. When I can’t really go anywhere, I feel down. I’m not used to it & the pain hurts to walk. So I enjoy researching things & prices. It brings up my spirit & I get excited. I try to fulfill a dream of mine once a year. Guess what my dream is for this year? I’m hoping I can do it when my Aunt Debbie comes here in May, but if not, sometime this year.

I want to go on a train ride. I’ve romanticized it enough after watching “Before Sunrise” a billion times. Thought I’d add this little clip from the movie. Celine, the character, is my spirit animal. Yes, I know. She’s not an animal, but you get what I’m trying to say. Lol. In life, you sometimes just have to take risks & see where it takes you!

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I think it would be fun to eat, walk around & take pictures of the ride. Who knows, maybe in the future we might take a train ride in Canada or up in Alaska. My son was obsessed with Thomas The Tank Engine as a kid, so he enjoys trains. Colorado is gorgeous, so I’m sure the views will be spectacular!

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Well, it’s been fun. My laptop died 2 months ago, so blogging with my index finger on my phone all month was a little challenging because I’m usually a very fast typist on the keyboard. Catch you at my next blog post!

xoxo 🚂🚃🚃🚃 💕

Day 30. March Blog Challenge

What’s something new you want to try?

Hi everybody,

How’s your Saturday going so far? There are several things I want to try. However, there is something my friend & her boyfriend tried 2 years ago in Denver that I am so jealous that they did. I will never, ever skydive so indoor skydiving is all I can handle. Besides, I am terrified of heights. She said they had a lot of fun & once I get the go ahead from my doctor after months of physical therapy, you best believe I’m heading up to Denver to check out this place!

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xoxo 🦋

Day 28. March Blog Challenge

What is your favorite quality in a person?

Hello my loves!

The month is coming to a close in a few days. I can’t believe April is already around the corner! March has been kind to me for the most part. Some days when I feel disappointed in how slow everything is progressing towards surgery, I remind myself to stay positive. Today I went to my doctor to get a referral to see a Neurosurgeon. Looks like I might need a little nerve decompression surgery to fix a pinched nerve in my lower back. This has to be taken care of before my knee surgery. So that means 1-3 weeks of recovery from that before the knee replacement. So, now I wait to hear from the Neurosurgeon in a few days to go meet him. But even before that, I need another MRI. This will be my 3rd time since last August. I actually like getting an MRI. It’s relaxing despite the loud clicking sounds. Thank God for headphones & listening to 80’s music.

One of the qualities I love about a person, but takes time to discover is consistency. Why is consistency such a hard quality to find in anyone? I’m not just talking in relationships, but in coworkers, family, potential friends etc. Consistancy is like the holy grail.

I’m the type of person who needs consistency. Consistency means a feeling of knowing I can depend on someone to be there for me, trust in their judgment & advice as well as companionship. I don’t care if you travel the world every week, but as long as I know you’re there for me via phone, skype that’s all that matters. In a chaotic world, it is nice to know someone will be there for you. I’ve had people say to me that they will be there for me, but they only end up ghosting me for whatever reason. That just shows me their true character. But I’ve also had friends who have remained consistent throughout my life & that truly is something to celebrate about. I do regularly tell those friends thank you. I never take their friendship for granted.

xoxo 🍕