How do I begin?
It’s been a year. Before that, I waited 10 years before I could go down to Ground Zero. I wanted to pay my respects, but I wanted to do it at the right time when I felt ready and last year was the year. You can read my experience here below of my blog post if you click on the link.
So, how does one feel a year later after finally going to Ground Zero? Well, for starters, September 11th will forever be embedded in my mind for the rest of my life. I never witnessed people getting killed “live” on television and it was horrific that I can’t get it off my mind. Worse yet, I knew someone on the second plane that was shown live on tv.
I’ll be thinking of families and people all over the world who lost their loved ones and also think and pray for the survivors. I don’t just think of them today, I actually think of them everyday because I live somewhat near an airport and I constantly see planes land and take off. It’s a constant reminder for me. It’s a difficult day for most people and I say most with trepidation.
I feel sadness in my heart because of this day and the memories, but on the other hand, I also hold on to the sense of hope and renewal after visiting the Memorial. I left refreshed of moving on as the result of seeing how things were finally coming together. I want to hang on to that feeling of renewal. It was almost like a cleansing of the soul of certain sadness after going there. You see life in the trees, people walking around talking, you hear birds chirping and the usual NYC noise. You feel as life has gone on and that it’s still building and revitalizing itself. I love that feeling. A new beginning. And the place is almost finished. I have enjoyed watching the place being build up ever so slowly.
It’s ok to break down in the middle of the day upon hearing audio of news of that day. But it’s also ok to laugh and have a good day if you’re having one. Don’t let anyone ruin it for you. Part of grief is moving on with life, but still remembering all the heroes and citizens who lost their lives in a respectful way.
What do you think of today? How has it effected you? Where were you on that day?
I don’t know what else to say on this blog. But know I had to write it for memory sake so I can look back and see how I was in my train of thought today. I had so many other blogs I wanted to write, but I chose this one. Tomorrow’s blog will be a bit lighthearted and I’m looking forward to sharing it with you. Let’s just say it has to do with a certain Spanish song.